whatever is happening to me

life is getting boring
things are getting mundane
and i am growing tired
of playing this waiting game
i am sick of all these thoughts
i think i'm going insane
my words don't make sense
they are bordering next to lame
and these that fill myhead
fill me up with shame
all i want to do is focus
and achieve my treasured aim
i'm not asking for anything else
don't want luck, power or fame
whatever i ma going through
has no scientific name
and nothing invented yet
can make my wild heart tame
and for this state that i'm in
i have only me to blame

just felt like that

i'm feeling very vulnerable today
all i want to do is hug you
i want you to wrap your arms around me
and just keep holding me tight
i want to feel the warmth of your body
and feel your heart beat against mine

and then just shut the world out
and sink into your body and drown in your soul
alas if you only knew
how much i want you

wanted...

one upon whom i can always depend
one who'll be true and not pretend
when my heart is broken,who'll mend
and a helping hand, always lend
my feelings correctly comprehend
and upon his ideals never bend
to wounds and worries who'll tend
admit his mistakes and make amend
loads of time with me he should spend
and occasionally a gesture of love,send
individualistic, not a follower of trend
and physical barriers he should transend
be on my side and always defend
not just a lover but a friend
with love that'll never end
i wantt that kind of a boyfriend