lessons learnt

no one teaches you
to lose a friend to another friend
to lose a friend to another world
to lose yourself for a friend
to find yourself in a friend
to find a friend in yourself

to stumble, crash and fall in love
to wake up and walk out of love
to struggle and stay in love
to stay and struggle in love
to define what exactly is love

some lessons are just learnt
never taught

realize

After a while you realize .
that you are never quite sure about what you are wishing for till it comes true.
that there is always another person involved .
that you have no right to play with their feelings just to figure out yours.
that there is only a subtle difference between friendship and love.
that sometimes you don't even know that difference.
that truth does hurt, but it also saves a lot of pain.
that you are a different person with different people.
that you never quite know till your try.
that you don't really know everything you thought you knew.
that sometimes you just need to breathe.
that doing nothing is better than doing anything at all.
that your definition and perception of love is messed up - by all the books, movies and people around.
that in the end you just have to create your own definition. t
hat being with someone can make you realize you don't need to be with anyone.
that your mom really is your best friend. period.

P. Ramachandran (late)

You weren't late Appa

I was

I never told you
that I love you
that I always will

thats all

let me

let me slip away
into the shroud of my mother's sari
let me be inebriated
by the breath of an old book
let me melt away
into the meaning of music
let me be conquered
by the chuckle of a child
let me wrap myself
with the warmth of words
let me stray
into the streams of sunlight

to my long lost beloved

I am getting back to you dear
To your comfortable scents
To the familiarity of your dispositions
To letting you take me to unexplored worlds
To meeting new people through you
To the company of traveling with you
To the assurance of always having you around
To feeling your emotions like my own
To our inside jokes and tears wept
To having a cup of coffee with you
To enjoying a rainy day curled up next to you
To the joy of unravelling your every part
To the taste of savoring every bit of you
To the suspense of your twists and turns
To the habit of reading in between your lines
To going to bed with you and waking up with you
To staying in bed with you all day
To not being able to put you down
To letting go of the world when your are around

I am getting back to you
my darling books..

this and that

my vacuum cleaner needs dusting
my teacher needs to be taught

someone tell my watch the time
someone tell my poetry whats rhyme

my torch needs some light
my eraser has too many marks

someone teach my phone to make calls
someone teach the builder to build walls

my glasses cannot be found
my camera needs some perspective

someone teach my friends to be friendly
someone teach my teddy bear to be cuddly

away

I've been away for a while now

I've been thinking about not thinking
and feeling about not feeling
I have been getting attached
over not getting attached
I have been writing about
not writing anything at all
And talking about
not having anything to talk about
I have been loving
for the fear of never feeling love
And fearing love
for the love of never fearing again
I have been alone
for the fear of getting lonely
I have been reading
about not being able to read anymore
And I have been singing
about losing my voice
I have been listening to music
for the fear of losing my soul
I have been dancing
because I have never really danced before

I've been away for a while
and whining about needing a vacation

fear

the music is still in mute
as the pictures play on mindlessly
The eyes are still closed
as the painter goes on frantically
the body is still stagnant
as the soul searches aimlessly
my arms are still bound
as you reach for me earnestly

I am scared of music
I am afraid it will be too loud
or that I might not be able to hear at all
I don't look at paintings
their meaning I might not comprehend
Or that I might comprehend too much