getting over you

i've done all the things
that I should do
everything they said
that'd help me get over you

I've tried anger
I've tried indifference
yet nothing I've done
has made much of a difference

heard all kinds of songs
read all kind of stuff
written everything down
but this is really tough

nothing I do stops me
from thinking about you a zillion times a day
wishing you were here to drive my blues away
wondering how it would've been if things hadn't gone astray
I can't help but think about you every step along the way

death

DEATH
is so starnge
so still
so final
so irreversible
so gut wrenching
so blatant
so unfathomable
so incomprehensible
so unnnerving
so ovewhelming
so cold
so intimidating
so numbing
so quiet
so loud

is such a slap on the soul
and vaccum in the heart

death

is so peaceful
for those who embrace it
and anything but
for those who embrace them

soul

i take it all in
and then i let it all go
i'm trying to try
i'm going with the flow
i'm not trying to make sense
i'm not bothering to rationalize
just taking things as they come
and tryin not to sensationalize

my poetry is all i have
its all i hold on to
it is all i feel
and all i see
it is all i try to be
i know it isn't fantabulous
but atleast its "me"..
as much a part
as this heart
and soul...