cognizance

As minutes turn into hours
As buds bloom into flowers
My doubts turn to fears
And my eyes fill with tears
I’m flooded with thoughts
I never thought were mine
I’m overcome with feelings
That I fail to define
I am consumed in them
My mind is in mayhem
I try to perceive. Analyze
To be rational and wise
Just as I disentangle the strands
And try to understand
They swirl into a mist
And then cease to exist
I search for my loss
But choose not to see
That what I lost
Is somewhere seep within me